I am frustrated today. I have alot on my mind. Where to begin.

Well if anyone has looked closely at my journal, you would see that my spelling could use some work. I have a long story that I would rather not get into about that. But to give you the just, I was taken out of acedemic studies when I was in grade 4 and not returned to them until grade 7. At which time I was put into a grade 7 class room with a grade 4 level. My spelling, that was alos at this level, went undetected, as I had so much catching up to do in math and science and all of the rest, nobody stoped and said "hey, she might need to work on that, lets help her". It was just left.

SO here it is some 20 years later, and its a secret I have concealed well......sort of. Now I find myself in a predicement. I have got this great job, that pays good, is secure, with lots of great people to work with. The only thing is, the most important thing in my job is spelling. If you don't have that, you don't got anything.

Today was not a good day. I became frustrated today with the girl that is training me. As she pointed out mor ethen once, how my spelling need work. It was the way she was putting it though, it was as though she was looking down at me. I can imagine that her grammer is impecable. But she has one very important thing that I don't.....many years of experience. I have 3 weeks. Plus the 6 weeks in school, thats it.

I want to learn all there is to learn, and do things the right way. Although I find myself wondering if I will be able to handle this. What if I cant'. What if this is out of my legue. Everyone there seems to just fit but then theres me, and some days I feel like I am an alien, and everyone can see it.

Maybe I have just had a bad day and am feeling sorry for myself. Who knows, thank god tomorrow is Friday, I'll use the weekend to work on my spelling and grammer and then go over the long list of words that I have to get used to.

SO on that note..........