Ever since my move to Alberta, time has been of the essence, there just isn't enough time.

I came by my blog today after recieving a comment notification, and noticed that all my pictures were gone....so I might have to edit some of that. I miss the bravenet community, I think I need to start coming around more often.

I might work on my page today.........

Well I have had my best day at work yet. It just went very smoothly. My trainer and I have found a way that helps me learn, in a way that works for the both of us.

My spelling is getting beter and better, as is my understanding of all the medical terminology we use everyday. There are more terms for this perfession then I think there is in the english language. So many words are so similar to each other, its near impossible to really know unless you look it up. The dictionary has become my bestfriend ( I knew it would). I realized that I may know alot of the terms but I dont really understand them.

So now Im on a mission. I want to learn as many medical terms and their meanings as I can. It can't hurt right? I love learning new things and what a better way? This job is by far the hardest thing I have ever done in my life. There is so much to know, and remember, and those reports can be meticulous.

Well, thats about all I have the energy for right now. My fingers are tired and my wrists are sore. 8 hours of typing a day, makes it really hard to come home and do it.

So on that note, here is wishing everyone a great day.

 

Sometimes things seem so clear to me. I see things in a way, I dont think anyone else does. But the problem lyes in my mind. I think to much. I judge myself to much. I put so much pressure on myself, its starting to take its toll on me. But I am aware.

I have a long road ahead of me. There are so many things going on in our life right now, I can' t even begin to keep track. From our new life in Fort McMurray, to the jobs and all that comes with those....the engagment that I feel like has been forever in the making, to the wedding/or no wedding decision that will make everyone happy...keeping in touch with friends, giving all my things away to lighten the load back up here....all these things ride on my mind.

I am aware now thogh, I know the things that need to be done, but it seems that the hardest part is the getting the wheel in motion. How does one set in motion, something that has been dormat for so long?

With time will come the answers and the things I need most. I think in all, I am just scared to death. I am not one that likes change, my whole childhood was forever changing, nothing ever stayed still, for even a moment. From place to place, school after school.....after school. Now that I am older I just want to stay still. And I am willing to do whatevere it takes to be able to achieve this. If this means living in Alberta for a while to come, so be it.

Life flys by when your not looking at it, instead depending on the clock, and being a slave to it. I know everyone has jobs and kids and places to be, but please, as I see it so clearly now, no matter what, at least once a day, at any time, no matter what your doing, just stop. While your hanging there in suspended time, enjoy that very moment and stand still, even if its only for a second, thats what I want in life is the ability to stand still and stay put, in a place of my choice.

Heres to all of our attempt at standing still.

I am jealous of all my friends in BC right now. They are in the middle of a heat wave.

Today I spent going through all the stuff that we moved here. I am so glad to have some of my stuff around.

I want to go for a walk tonight. Its going to be a nice night I think. I haven't done enough exploring yet, there are many places to go, I just have to go out and find them. One of the places that I did find was the river. Its peaceful there. I like to go there after a stressful day at work.

This summer Tyler and I are going to go on a road to Edmonton. We want to go get one of those Fantacy Land Hotel rooms in West Edmonton Mall. I have never been in one of them, although I have been to the mall twice.

His parents are also going to come out in July. They are driving here. They like to travel, now that Ingrid is retired, they do more stuff together. I think thats nice.

I have come to terms that I am not going to be able to go to Merritt Mountain Music Fest this year. This would have been my 6th year. It was something that set my whole summer in motion. It was the trip that I would save for all year, the tickets to it were Tyler's birthday present to me every year, because he knew thats what I really wanted. I have so many good memories in that place. It was such a wild time.

To stay up all night and then get up early in the morning.....lay in the creek and sun tan all day, then go and party on the fair grounds at night. It would take a good week to recover from that trip. But so worth it.

One thing that is making the fact that I am not going this year easier, is that I dont drink anymore. So I could be it becoming more of a headache then a good thing. Being around drunk people is fine if you are one of them, and can relate to their slurred speech, off the wall comments and crazy things that might happen (i.e streakers....mud fights)but then if your around drunk people when your not, they can be down right annoying. That can spell trouble.

I think my party days are over. I am settleing down into my new life, with Tyler and our new jobs. I think this is so much better then spending a weekend on a mountain with a bunch of crazy drunk people.

Well on that note, I have to get dinner going, because I'm good like that. But it won't be long before I write again.

Well I gotta say that my last week has been more busy then ever. Now that its the weekend I am gonna relax and unpack all the stuff that we brought back with us. Im so happy to have some of my stuff around me. It feels more like home. I belive that a house is just a house, but its the people and the things that you hold dear to your heart that make the house a home.

I am coming to terms with the reality that I now am an Albertan. I left BC with the weirdest feeling. I cant even explain it. I am happy here with Tyler, yet  BC will always be my home.

Work has been getting better. I am liking  the radiology. I didnt think that I would but I am getting the hang of it. Every day gets better...easier.

Well Tyler wants me to help him finish unloading the truck....then we are going for dinner. Hope everyone has a great weekend. Im looking forward to mine.

Well what a week it turned out to be. Tyler and I flew down to Abbotsford on Wedsday, and it was work work work ever since.
We were packin up the house and getting everything into storage and overto my parents and friends. It was hectic. I was supposed to be at
work yesturday morning, but we had so much to do, it wasn't possible. So instead I was going to fly home, and there wasnt a flight until
Thursday.....so I took the bus!!! A23hour ride home. Im sitting in Edmonton right now, waiting for my bus. Its been a long ride but I'm glad to be home and to be ableto go bak to work tomorrow.
Well I have to keep this short but I'll write again later once Im home. Okbye.

I am frustrated today. I have alot on my mind. Where to begin.

Well if anyone has looked closely at my journal, you would see that my spelling could use some work. I have a long story that I would rather not get into about that. But to give you the just, I was taken out of acedemic studies when I was in grade 4 and not returned to them until grade 7. At which time I was put into a grade 7 class room with a grade 4 level. My spelling, that was alos at this level, went undetected, as I had so much catching up to do in math and science and all of the rest, nobody stoped and said "hey, she might need to work on that, lets help her". It was just left.

SO here it is some 20 years later, and its a secret I have concealed well......sort of. Now I find myself in a predicement. I have got this great job, that pays good, is secure, with lots of great people to work with. The only thing is, the most important thing in my job is spelling. If you don't have that, you don't got anything.

Today was not a good day. I became frustrated today with the girl that is training me. As she pointed out mor ethen once, how my spelling need work. It was the way she was putting it though, it was as though she was looking down at me. I can imagine that her grammer is impecable. But she has one very important thing that I don't.....many years of experience. I have 3 weeks. Plus the 6 weeks in school, thats it.

I want to learn all there is to learn, and do things the right way. Although I find myself wondering if I will be able to handle this. What if I cant'. What if this is out of my legue. Everyone there seems to just fit but then theres me, and some days I feel like I am an alien, and everyone can see it.

Maybe I have just had a bad day and am feeling sorry for myself. Who knows, thank god tomorrow is Friday, I'll use the weekend to work on my spelling and grammer and then go over the long list of words that I have to get used to.

SO on that note..........

Well yet another week is upon us. I am starting to get excited now about going home. I haven't gone this long with out seeing my mom in a long time, if ever. That's why I am so glad that we got her all set up with a webcam. She loves it.

Work has been going good. Only a few minor frustrations, but other then that its been good. I am getting faster and faster everyday.

Tyler and I had a nice weekend. Yesterday was fun too. We went and picked up lunch and then went to this park and ate it. Watched baseball and people rollerblading. It was so warm out. Then today it started snowing again, just a few flurries but they were there. I mean come on, its May, its practically summer in BC.  Ohwell, I knew that winter was 8 months out of the year when I came, so I can't complain now. So I won't.

Tyler and I leave on the 18th, and its going to be busy. We need to work on a list. Thats what we really need. My mom and sister and a couple of friends are going to come over and help me pack the house. theat way it should go by fast. Tyler is going to be working on the truck, and making sure that it is going to make it on the long drive back to Fort Mac. It will be so nice to have the truck here. It's so much more practicle then the car is. We went looking at the possibility of leasing a truck. A Chevy Avalanche. They are really nice, the only thing is, I would have to say that about 4-10 people have them, they are everywhere, that just means there good though. Tyler and  I are working on it. As soon as we can we are going to lease.

Well the guys will be home soon so I should go. Tyler and I are putting our name in for a Townhouse here, this 2 bedroom thing isn't working....neither is living with Chris. So good luck to us on the hunt for our very own place.

Wow, I can't even  begin to explain how fast the week went. It was Monday and then BAM its Friday. I quite enjoyed it really.

Tyler and  I went and bought some seafood last night, it was so good. We got some crab and shrimp. Then I made this  really good  sauce, garlic and lemon juice, sooooo good.

So just 12 days before we go back to BC. I'm excited. I miss everyone. My mom is looking forward to it alot. She just loves the web cam. Its something that is brand new to her. She thinks it brings me closer to her, and well if it makes her happy then there you go right!

Went and got my hiar colored today, and the girl straightened it for me, it looks great. The color I cose was Mahogany. Its dark but not so much.

Tonight, Tyler and  I are going to go for dinner and then we are going to go the casino. Its fun every now and again. Especially when I win. Other then that, I thnk we might watch a movie lateron. I am quite tired this weekend, this week as quick as it went for me I think that it wiped me out mentally. I gotpretty frustrated on Friday. I couldnt seem to get anyone to hear what I was saying, and all I was doing was asking questions to find out how to do stuff.

I know tha this job is a high stress job.....I knew that going in. I guess I just need to learn to relax, and not let things like that rile me. I think that being the new person, its bound to be this way for a while, until I get a handle on what I am doing. It's going good otherwise. I am getting good at the CT scans and Chest xrays. I have also done alot on ultrasounds and all that great stuff.

Well thats about all I got for now. I think that I will go and get ready to go out. I dont know what I am going to wear and that could take some time. I hate that, I wish tha tI could be like that show The Simpsons, that way I could wear the same out fit every single day..lol okbye.

I had a nice relaxing weekend at home. I watched some movies, did a bit of shopping. It was good to be back to work today though. Not knowing anyone out here, I get bored really fast. 

Work is getting easier. All though I am now being trained in radiology. Its a little different then the normal chart note or Operative report. Its more the ultrasounds and MRI's....so the terms re a little differnt then that of normal stuff.

So this week will be a challange. I just have to remember to stay calm, and not get worked up over it. I have done really well so far. I know that someone there will always know what the doctor is saying, I just have to ask. Everyday I will get a bit better.

I am getting excited about going to BC. I guess I can't call it home anymore. We gave our notice to the proporty manager for our house, so thats it. Theres no turning back, at least not there.

It sad, but then I think about what we are doing out here and how much better it is for us right now. It makes it all worth it.

For now though my fingers are all typed out so Im gonna go. Okbye.